Sunday, January 26, 2014

For the Love of Music


Today I looked down at the CDs in my car:

1. Ultimate Dance Party 1997
2. Johnny Cash
3. Old Two Rivers Baptist Church Sunday morning mix
4. DMB Live in Chicago and at Luther College
5. Harry Connick, Jr, Songs I Heard
6. Dan Oxley

My current play list, lol. Of course there are more choices on my iPhone (because seriously, what can smart phones NOT do besides be human? It's pretty scary...yet helpful) and I'm as apt to be singing with latest pop song on the radio (words that I make up in my head most the time ;) as I am to be belting out hymns at the top of my lungs a capella. Yes, I am the one dancing in my car - go ahead and laugh at me - I laugh at me too!

You'd be hard pressed to find someone to disagree with the fact that music is inspiring, but don't just take my word for it:

Johann Sebastian Bach noted that “the final aim and reason of all music is nothing other than the glorification of God and the refreshment of the spirit.”

Martin Luther said, “my heart, which is so full to overflowing, has often been solaced and refreshed by music when sick and weary.”

Johnny Depp agreed with Hans Christian Anderson's "where words fail, music speaks," by admitting that "music touches us emotionally, where words alone can't."

It's internationally inspiring. I cannot tell you how moved I have been worshiping our amazing LORD with believers in other nations, or even merely having dance parties with songs and people from all cultures. Longfellow was right - "music is the universal language of mankind!"

Be it melancholy or sprightly, "music...will  help dissolve your perplexities and purify your character and sensibilities, and in time of care and sorrow, will keep a fountain of joy alive in you." This from Dietrich Bonhoeffer!

Oh how I could go on and on! Some days sad songs are wonderful to identify with, or songs of truth to combat discouragement. Today music has done a good job of inspiring me to praise the name of the LORD, to give glory where glory is due - Hebrews 13:15 and all of Psalm 96! Thanking God for the gift of music today. :)

Sing to the LORD, bless His name; tell of His salvation from day to day!  Worship the LORD in the splendor of holiness, tremble before Him, all the earth!" 

So when you get in your car, go ahead and sing and dance it out like nobody's watching. Maybe somebody is and they just need a laugh. ;)

Thursday, January 16, 2014

Good News

I keep in touch with a few people from this summer in Jordan. One of my patient/friends I asked y'all to pray for as she was so sad to be away from family has given me great news - her TB is better and she gets to go home in couple weeks!  Praising the LORD for this healing! :D

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Myths Debunked

It has come to my attention that there are many incorrect beliefs floating out there. For the good of humanity, these need discrediting.

[Note: my editorial staff removed several statements deemed "too much" for the general public. For you non-medical people, be very thankful for said staff ;)]

                      

Myth #1: Miley Cyrus knows Molly. Heck no. She thinks she's "that cool," but has no idea. She should follow an ER nurse around for a day. Molly purports to be pure ecstasy (MDMA), but CNN reports that only 13% actually contains any ecstasy. That which does is often mixed with other drugs. So basically take a Molly if you want to play Russian roulette with your life. Seriously - people on Molly have had the most bizarre reactions I've seen since bath salts came out.

Myth #2: All Middle Easterners want to kill Americans. Good heavens, no! I have several friends in and from that area and Middle Eastern countries are quite known for their hospitality.

Myth #3: Putting things "in there" cures constipation. I was shocked to discover how widespread this one is. In short, it doesn't. Simple stool softener or laxative, folks; enema if you're desperate. Please don't stick objects up there to get something out.

Myth #4: Only other countries have crazy rules and regulations. I was hesitant to get my emissions checked today since last year I failed three times - even with a car in great condition (turned out to be some catalytic converter computer code thing). Today I failed again! I have "too clean" of an engine cycle. What?! Weirdest fail ever! "Just drive it around for a couple days then come back" was the subsequent advice.  At this point there is nothing to do but laugh.

Myth #5: If you swallow gum it will stay in your stomach for seven years. Sometimes the digestive system doesn't have the easiest time with gum, but no, it does not stay there for even one year. A couple days and it normally exits just fine.

Myth #6: The flu shot is useless. The flu shot is effective in preventing many strains of the flu and lessens the symptoms of others. The flu is deadly this year, y'all! Remember this when immunization time rolls around again this fall. [The editorial staff states that I may have been corrupted by the government and vaccine makers, but until medical evidence convinces me otherwise, I'm sticking to this one]

Myth #7: Aliens with teleportation devices may exist. Oh wait. This one's not a myth. If you're out there and can hear me, I believe...and want one of those devices...

Friday, November 8, 2013

Les Miserables & Life

Last night I had the pleasure of seeing Les Miserables. I went for my sister, the flautist. ;) She is such a talented musician. And oh how music can evoke such emotion!

If you have never experienced Les Miserables, I would recommend you read the book or watch the talking movie version with Liam Neeson. His acting is stellar. The musical is best after you know the story.

It’s illegal or something to take pics of the show so y’all get a dark selfie at intermission :P

Les Miserables begins with Jean Valjean being released from hard labor jail after 19 years. His initial crime? Stealing a loaf of bread.  After being ‘freed,’ his past continues to plague him because his papers are stamped CONVICT.  

“Now every door is closed to me
Another jail. Another key. Another chain
For when I come to any town
They check my papers
And they find the mark of Cain
In their eyes I see their fear
We do not want you here.’ ”


He cannot get a job or a place to stay until a kindly Bishop lets him into his home, feeds, and houses him. In desperation, Jean Valjean takes advantage of the man, seizing his silver and taking off in the night. He is quickly apprehended by the police who take him back to the Bishop who, instead of condemning him, tells the police to unhand Jean and tells Jean to take more of the silver, as well. At this point he informs him that he is now to be an honest man, “by the witness of the martyrs, by the passion and the blood, God has raised you out of darkness.”

One thing I love about Les Mis is how it shows people behind their labels. Why would a convict or prostitute do what they do?  Let’s face it, those aren’t professions kids dream of being when they’re young. The prostitute in the story was fired from her job for refusing the advances of the foreman and tried every other way to provide for her daughter before selling her body.  Do you think it’s so different today?

Les Miserables is a hard story to go through at times, filled with war and desperation and despair, but isn’t real life, too?  This world we live in is rough, people. I have seen what many would term as “the worst” -  starving children, rape victims, hopeless prisoners, abuse, neglect, bombings, shootings, people who literally bite each others’ faces off and stab their parents through the eyes.

I have been left a choice. I can build up walls around my heart…and that would be easiest. It’s simplest not to care. Caring can be a most beautiful feeling or downright painful. I love how C.S.Lewis puts it:

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.”

I choose love.

Not ooshy, gooshy feelings, or the ideology that “everyone should just be nice,” but purposeful, grace-filled, difficult love. Love that suffers long, is kind, selfless, and bears, believes, and hopes all things. I Cor. 13:4-8. I want to be like the Bishop in Les Miserables who shows unexpected grace and points people to God.  I know I will be hurt. Over and over, probably. But I choose it anyway. You know why?  Because I was changed by love.  I was a wretch, living in sin without hope until God in His magnificent grace reached down and loved me, the unlovable. Jean Valjean wondered after all he had done:

“How can I ever face my fellow men?
How can I ever face myself again?
My soul belongs to God, I know
I made that bargain long ago
He gave me hope when hope was gone
He gave me strength to journey on.”


I know I cannot love like this on my own. It is Christ’s love that carries, strengthens, empowers me, and gives me hope.  Another character in Les Mis is the policeman, Javert. He ends up committing suicide. All his life he has followed the law and done good deeds. He thought he had it figured out, but after Jean Valjean spared his life, he saw that the law had failed him. Today it is the same. No amount of good deeds can get us in to heaven. It is only by grace through faith that we are saved. Praise God that He takes away that burden of us having to try on our own!

Both Javert and Jean Valjean were shown grace and presented with a choice.  One chose despair, the other chose acceptance and gratitude.  We are faced with this same decision today – and every day.  We can remember our past and current sin and be crippled by it, or we can be overwhelmed with thankfulness to God who sent His own, beloved Son to be the propitiation for that sin. I am not perfect by any means. I do not always choose the latter, but when people ask how I can be so happy, I think Karl Barth puts it well – “Joy is the simplest form of gratitude!”  God’s faithfulness and abundant grace lead me to thankfulness that brings joy.  It is Him, not me.

Jesus said “If you love me, keep my commandments” (Jn 14:15) and He has commanded me to love.  He knows I don’t want to every day.  He knows I don’t always feel it. He knows there are days it would be easier to not show patience and grace, but when I think about how much I have been forgiven, the grace which has been lavished so greatly on me (I Jn 3:1), it spurs me on to keep loving. It fills my heart with joy. He chose me, so I choose Him.

When I survey the wondrous cross on which the Prince of Glory died;
My richest gain I count but loss, and pour contempt on all my pride.
Were the whole realm of nature mine, that were an offering far too small;
Love so amazing, so divine, demands my soul, my life, my all.
                                                Isaac Watts

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Air vs Land Bombs


They both have a low rumble, like thunder…or how thunder would sound if rain ever came during the summer here in Jordan.  Five miles away from the Syrian border, I have learned how to tell which kind of bombs are exploding.  Those from the air shake the ground while those from the land merely make noise. 

Now, I am by no means an expert on what is happening in Syria. I’ve never even been there.  All I’ve done is live near the Syrian border and work with refugees.  I’ve talked to Syrians, Jordanians, and other ex-pats who live in the area and there is no obvious consensus on what they believe should be done, who should be in power, etc.   Most of them end up throwing their hands in the air saying, “There is just no good way out of this situation.”  Oh may God bless the leaders of nations with His wisdom!  But not in them will we trust, but we "hope in the LORD; for with the LORD there is mercy, and with Him is abundant redemption" Psalm 130:7.

Unrest around the city has been ramped up these past couple weeks.  There have been a few murders and lots of rumors.  Talk around town says the men were killed due to an old tribal feud, a random targeting at the university, a drug deal gone bad, it was discovered that a rich guy had cash on him – hearsay is rampant.

We were having a farewell grill-out for a guy, so a couple of my friends and I went into town for food.  As we were driving, all of a sudden six armored military jeep/tanks drove past us, lights flashing and sirens blaring.  We looked around and saw a hoard of people running down a street towards us, appearing terrified.  I didn't recognize what a rare that sight was till seeing it.  One of the guys running shouted in English, "Don't go to the market!"  Praise God for him because none of us were fluent in Arabic so hadn't a clue what the frightened masses were shouting.  Maybe he was an angel.  I don’t know, but he alerted us as to where stuff was happening and we subsequently changed our course from the market to away from the market and whatever was going down! 

Due to the nature of the road, we traveled along with the jeep/tanks for a while and were amazed at how few cars pulled over to make way for them.  When we got an opportunity, we deviated left when the tanks went right. There was a store right there so we were able to get most of we needed, but then decided safety was more important than the rest of the food and our own insatiable curiosity and and went back to the hospital (thankfully to our hospital and not the local one where a fire was started in the ER - that’s the rest of the story from my ambulance post – the ER had just reopened after repairs after this crazy day!).

We came to find out that there was a big fight in the marketplace between Syrians and Jordanians because each were blaming the other for the murders.  I’m sure this was only the tip of the iceberg with all the tension surrounding things that may potentially happen in and to Syria.

And in case you’re wondering, no I was not scared and no, this should not make you concerned about my mental state. :P  I believe wholeheartedly that God is sovereign.  He is in control of everything.  This does not make me feel invincible by any means.  I have prayed that I may bring glory to God – whether that be by my life or by my death, and He can allow either at any time.  I pray God gives me faith to say continually with Job, “Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him,” and with the Psalmist, “The LORD is my light and my salvation: whom shall I fear? The LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?”

Also don’t let this make you concerned about my physical safety, either.  I waited till I left Jordan to post this just for your ease of mind.  I’m spending a few days with friends in London before coming back to the good old US of A, but I will say it wasn’t easy leaving my new friends in the Middle East on the brink of a potential war.

      (See? Made it safely to London)

An anonymous missions worker once said, “Remember, when you see a missionary coming home broken in body and weary in soul, it isn't the privations or dangers or things he's done that leave a deep hurt; it's the things he couldn't do that break his heart.”

I am completely convinced that God’s timing is perfect, but that doesn’t mean I’m not sad to leave at this time. Syria is a mess.  They need so much help.  

May our merciful God spare lives. May He draw people to Himself. May He show Himself strong and bring glory to His name through this impossible situation.  

I love you all, 
Cara :)

I leave you with words from an old hymn I believe to be timely for Syrians (and others!) right now...

Down in the human heart, crushed by the tempter, feelings lie buried that grace can restore;
Touched by a loving heart, wakened by kindness, chords that were broken will vibrate once more.
Rescue the perishing, care for the dying. Jesus is merciful, Jesus will save.